Changes

Getting married means many changes. I never realized this prior to the nuptials, but here we are and the changes continue to grow.

My husband and I didn't live together before we were married, we waited to have sex, and our bank accounts were kept separately (until right before the wedding). We had our own routines and would see each other often. He paid his bills and I paid ours. We did laundry for free at his parent's house and his mom made dinner every night.

Once we got married, all of those things changed. The honeymoon was a way for us to "get to know each other" away from what was to be our new life together at home. It was great and we had such a great time. The weekend after we came back my sister, Michelle, stayed with us for a week, pushing back the inevitable. Then, reality set in.

Bills needed to be paid, we were going to be living together, our routines needed to blend, we would have to now pay to do our laundry, and I would have to make dinner every night. Oh my!

Being married has meant a whole new way of living. Sometimes it can be overwhelming with dishes, laundry, and a messy apartment, but the security, comfort, and love from my husband makes it all worth it.

I never thought that being married would mean so many changes and to be honest, I didn't exactly adjust well to all of it. I got overwhelmed with all of the phone calls that had to be made to "switch everything over." While my husband works full-time to support us, it allows me to work part-time and I feel like I should be able to be superwoman and when I can't, it hits me hard. Of course, no one is perfect, but it still feels like I should be able to do more, to be a better wife, teacher, and person.

Being married also has brought a number of wonderful changes. I get to see my husband every night. I get to have dinner with him, create memories, and to go to bed sleeping next to him at the end of the day. Those things mean more to me than any of the overwhelming things that may come.

Change is hard, but can be wonderful all at the same time. I'm working on it one day at a time, trying my best to focus on the positive things that we have.