Opening Up

My husband is a wonderful man. He is patient, kind, loving, and supportive. He is the one I go to with all of my issues throughout the day.

I am happy to report that my mornings have gotten increasingly better. However, my evenings have become increasingly difficult. Most afternoons, I feel very blah which leads to rough evenings. When my husband comes home we eat dinner, talk, and get ready for the next day. Usually I have a little down time while he finishes getting ready for bed.

The past couple of nights I've been super irritable or sad in the evenings. It's really getting to me. I feel so horrible that my husband gets the brunt end of the stick. Of course I apologize, but that doesn't fix the ongoing problem of having rough nights.

After months of having lots of irritability and moods, I saw a doctor. The doctor prescribed me something to hopefully help even things out. Part of me is happy to know that this might work and help me feel normal again, but part of me is embarrassed that I can not do this on my own. I've tried this on my own for years and it just isn't working. I've tried praying, exercising, getting a special lamp for the winter, taking up a mellow hobby, drowning myself in tv, but nothing has worked.

I need to do this because it's what's best for me and my husband. Sometimes the best thing to do is to get help when needed. I know that I need help because I just don't always feel right. My moods fluctuate a lot and it can be so draining.

So, right now I'm doing this to try to get me to feel normal and happy again on a more consistent basis. It's ok to need help and to accept it. Here's to the road of recovery and getting to the right place again...